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My stud lover

She is a drug coz she got me addicted to her . Sometimes I look at her and I can’t stop imagining the things she can do. I call her Gray ( from the novel Fifty shades of gray ) coz she likes my hand in cuffs.

I met her walking in a street and our eyes locked and I knew I wanted more .Am not a stalker but for her I made an exception. I flowed her not in a creepy way and at last I got her contact . 😜

There are these days I wake up happy for no reason and on such a fateful day I decided to text her (my gray) . She answered and my heart was beating so fast. I wanted to meet her and she agreed and so we met and headed to her cube . She has those calculating eyes the eyes that intimidate pple. I couldn’t bring myself to look at her and so gravity became my eyes’ best friend ..just great🙄.

She just sat there staring at me and smirking so I decided I won’t be a loser. I asked for a kiss and she gave it to me. I have kissed a lot of pple before but damn this girl’s kiss was the best I have ever had . That’s how I knew I wanted her and I wanted more from her. Thats how our story began.

Gray made my life fun…it was adventure after adventure . She made me crave for her presence her smell was intoxicating…I became a sucker for her hugs. It was a life I wanted, just pure bliss. From laughing to our silly jokes to listening to her singing . She played the guitar for me and I loved every moment of it. I guess guitars are just so romantic .

She acts like a gentleman it’s in her blood..from opening a door for me..or letting me go first to holding my arm when in crowds .I think her personality drew me deeper into her .She has a pure heart but she hides it well under her composed face. If u meet her for the first time u would think she is a snob but when u get to know her she is easy to talk to.

I remember an occasion when we were apart ..things happened and we couldn’t be together again . I was devastated and sad but I did record her singing to me and that kept me going . Her voice and smile are enough to put a smile to any gloomy face.

Not all good things last 🥺 .We separated but remained friends .we talk and help each other but it is really tough to act like I don’t have feelings for her yet all I want is her..not just as a friend but as a companion, a lover a partner or as my Gray because that’s all I see when am with her. U might call it love or lust but to me it’s both.

Do you ever feel that time isn’t always enough when u are with your favorite person ? Do u feel gloomy when u part ways ? That’s how I feel when I part from Gray.😢😢

I miss you Gray and I hope that stars will align in my favour someday. I miss when u used to make me happy .

I thought you liked me in cuffs? Don’t u want to be my Gray ? If you do then come back to me.🥺🥺😜

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Closure…

Here I am again staring at the sunset as the memories come rushing back to me. Then I plug in my earphones listening to the songs we used to love,just visualizing you and me dancing to the beats. I always loved your company because I was always my true self around you…I could do just about anything with no fear of being judged.

Do you remember us walking on the railway …how we tried not to fall from the rails..how u tickled me and made me fall…how I pouted when u won the challenge..how u carried me just to make me feel better…have u forgotten all that because I just can’t .🥺🥺

Have u forgotten how our conversations used to flow with no effort. How we used to talk about anything how we understood each other with mere gestures .How we used to laugh and just live.

I remember the smallest things. I just wore one of my clothes and remembered that it was the one I wore when we first met. I even remembered what you said to me that day😅can’t say it out loud. I remember how I anticipated for our next meeting never getting enough of you.

Do you miss us even a little bit? Do u sometimes wish time could go back just to re-live those moments? Do u wish to see me one more last time? Do u miss joking with me ? Do u miss teasing me? Do u miss us just walking in the moonlight? Do u miss holding my hand? Do u miss me spanking u wen u make fun of me? Do u miss my company?

I wish I could see you one last time. Just one more sunset and everything will be fine. Just a day with u to tell you everything that has happened since u left. To tease u and have fun with u because it is my last day with you. Just to redo everything so the memories won’t fade. Just to hug you ..feel your heavenly musky smell…feel your warmth. I want to grab to your coloused hands just to memories how they feel around my tiny ones. I want you to carry me one last time so I can feel like a kid again. I want us to walk on the railway and play one last time. I want us to stop at an alley and steal a kiss. I want you to give me a day to do all this and then I can walk away.

I just want closure is that too much to ask? I wanted an ocean but u just gave me a drop. I am asking for one more day with you.🥺🥺😭😭.

Fun fun fun🤗🤗

Hello friends i am sorry I took forever to write something .Guess what..😜 I am back with something sweet..I just hope u love it…read and have some fun.

I am a true believer in having fun … YOLO. I have a diary because I prefer writing down wat I feel .I also write down some things I wanna do before I die (funny right😜) .It is just that I got to understand and come to terms with life. Life is short and death knocks at someone’s door at any time…there is no warning whatsoever.

My list of things to do (before I die) is funny but that’s the whole idea…having fun and enjoying every single bit of it.

The first thing in my list is swimming in a river at night. Creepy right😬😬u get that picture of a cold frog crawling up your back or mister snake biting u😂😂 . I get scared too but that’s what I wanted to do…face my fears and meet my desire .Dufumpararu😄😄it sounds crazy but it is fun.

I met this guy call it twin flame or something . I am not always carefree with guys…I will give them my number then go mute but with him everything is different . So we got to know each other just for like two days and he is like can I take u swimming in a river ..it was around 8 pm so I had to inform my siz . She had to see him too to approve ( sema kuwa overprotective) I am her younger sister after all🤗. She agreed .

That’s how he ( Mudah) helped me accomplish my desire without him even knowing. It was really awesome and I couldn’t stop smiling the whole night . I felt like I was glowing.

Swimming under a waterfall..

This is the second thing in my list .I love swimming and water is my all time escape from reality. I just hope I accomplish this as well soon .

Camping in a forest with friends.

I am actually turning 19 on November 28 and yet I have never camped .I have my fears about this because of the teenage movies I have watched where ghosts appear at camp sites 👹👹👹 but I will still try this one out. The main agenda is to have fun😋😋🤗🤗.

My list is endless but I will make sure I accomplish every desire I have .

I am just glad I met Mudah and his vibe matched mine💯💯 . I learnt something too…time does not mean anything . You can actually know someone for years and still vibe yenu isiwai fanana . Then unaeza just meet msee for like hours then boom u be good friends .

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Expectations…😤

A twelve sylabble word that has spoilt many relationships.

Is it really wrong to believe in a forever with someone? I am writing this with a heavy heart maybe my heart is broken. Maybe I read many novels and that’s why I have many expectations.

The knight in a black armour, is all this overated ? Maybe I live in fantasy ,but is it wrong to dream ?Why does it hurt ?

Sometimes I just comfort myself that if something was really meant to be mine it will always come back .Patience is a virtue that’s what people say and I somehow believe so. Maybe I am too young to understand relationships…maybe I dream a lot…and maybe it is not really love maybe infatuation.

The only thing that hurts is the constant fantasy and the emotional attachment that comes with relationships. We all make mistakes .I am a strong believer in second chances but what if someone you love or infatuated with won’t give a second chance?

I don’t know what to believe anymore.will u rather tell the truth and hurt someone or tell a lie and make someone happy?

Please let me see ur views in the comment section maybe I will get a solution and I for once stop being an emotional mess😭😭😭.

Good old times

I just remembered of a certain day when I was young.I live in the village and I love it here…waking up with the sound of birds chirping,the cock crowing and fresh air.In the village u sometimes don’t need a watch 😄.

It was this fateful day …I woke up and did all my chores .It was a normal day or so I thought.I was just sitted in my room with a cup of tea when I heard some shouts.The funny thing is that it was my dad😅.My dad is a strict parent and he is a bit stingy (sorry to say.)

I rushed out and I find my dad staring at the sky…looking up I spot a hawk with my dad’s favourite chick clasped tightly on it’s claws .( Not again ) I said to myself . I knew he won’t let it pass .He calls my siblings and commands us to follow the hawk . Bring back my chick he says and heads inside.

We start running all over the village shouting at the hawk to let go of the chick. People were staring ,kids running with us trying to help.I thought dad studied Biology … surely he should know about the food chain .

I can’t go back home now so we just run after the hawk and as if sensing our trouble the hawk releases the chick. The damage is there but at least we got his favorite chick back.

My older brother caries it home triumphantly.You should have seen the smile on my dad’s face .He goes on congratulating us for being fast and rescuing the chick.

I get back to my room and my cup of tea is now cold .I still need it so I take a gulp and sigh .What a crazy day😅😅.

Behind the smile

Sometimes we all hide our troubles and all our insecurities behind a mask…and the mask is a well lit smile.

We do this just to assure the people around us that we are okay that everything is normal. We can’t lie to ourselves though coz the pain is always there. It is always present when we are alone hidden in a corner .All we do is cry when the memories are vivid .Sometimes I say that we all pass through hard times just to be strong. That time heals all wounds.I am writing this to assure anyone who is going through a tough time that it is okay to cry and that with time everything will be okay.